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Dear Ave, It’s 20 to 1am on a September evening. It’s been a rainy September so far. How are you? I want to ask but I know it’s silly of me to ask this. But I have this feeling in my gut that you are somewhere still. Because you are. You were alive, and you…
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Dear Ave, Yesterday I dreamt that I was hospital, feeling short of breath. As the dream went on, I felt more and more short of breath. Tom has a video of pinching my cheek and nose and me not waking up. I only woke up when he called my name. I was laying on the…
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Dear Ave, How are you? It’s been a while, Ma. I have at least two drafts that I haven’t been able to publish. My last post is almost 3 months ago. For some reason I couldn’t write anything coherent enough to post. But today, I am sick. It started 2 days ago at work, when…
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Dear Ave, Happy birthday. On your first birthday in heaven, I want to let people know who you are. Mama, you were always smiling. And laughing. and you were soft. You were soft inside and out. Or maybe that’s because you were with Papa, who was the toughest person I’ve ever met. Or so I…
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Dear Ave, I married Tom two days ago, May 4, 2024. It was at Nymans National Trust Garden, where I’d always wanted to marry him. We had our first kiss there. That place is unbelievably beautiful. You told Tom in August 2022, just after you’d started your chemo: “Please look after my daughter for me.”…
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Dear Ave, I miss you so much. I wish you didn’t die. That you’re still here with me. I returned to work on Thursday and felt quite dizzy, I think it’s my body adjusting back to work again. Or it could be the amount of blood pressure pills I am on. I was walking home…
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Dear Ave, I went home to see you, but I didn’t expect to leave with you gone. So many things happened in the last weeks of your life. All I can write about is what happened with us. And I’m not ready to write about all of it. But there are things that I never…
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Dear Ave, You died around 2:40pm on a Friday afternoon, a day before Chinese New Year. I do not remember the weather, even though everyday that we were in hospital I would lift up the blinds and look out. I remember mostly sunny days while we were there. I think it was sunny too when…
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Hello! I have found my old WordPress account and now I am going to use it for my personal blog. Today is March 25, 2024. My name is Hershey and I am 34 years old. I moved to the UK from the Philippines when I was 26 years old for work and that move changed…
Dear Avelina Love Hershey 